Week of 4/26/26

I don't really believe anything happens for a reason. You can consider me a bit of a nihilist. No structure, no rhyme or reason, just beautiful existence. Still, I've been encountering dogs an awful lot lately. Enough to make me confront the decision: Do I want a dog? Well yes and no.

Yes, I want a dog. I've got the time and money to invest in giving a dog a great home. My work schedule would leave me available to spend plenty of time with a puppy as they needed intervention. My finances would put me in a position to have a quality trainer. It's just a prime time to think about getting a doggo.

But not really. This is the first time in my adult life that I have been able to live with what I consider to be minimal responsibilities. Few enough that I had to impose a weekly responsibility with this blog and with my workouts. I don't do it because I love it; I do it because if I don't I may lose my mind! It's a fine line between a laissez faire approach to life and a lazy ass life. I have a desire to spend my time more productively to a degree, but a puppy is a HUGE demand on my time. In a good way, yes. Still, huge responsibility. I am also absurdly soft hearted when it comes to dogs. Trying to go to a shelter and leave with a single dog may be impossible. Even if it was, the psychic damage of not being able to take all of the dogs home would take me weeks to recover from. It's best if a dog just comes into my life and needs a home.

And that almost happened. When I was at work yesterday a staff member posted in our GroupMe about someone they knew that had a puppy and wasn't in a position to keep it anymore. When I had been on one of my walks last week I thought about how many dogs I've encountered lately and if it was time to get one. I considered the process of shopping and realized that I'm not emotionally capable, so I decided then if I came across a dog in need I would give it a home. So I responded, got the contact info, and let the owner know I was interested. They said there was one person who was going to meet the dog yesterday evening and if they didn't take it they would let me know. As of 2:00pm today no contact from the owner.

I'm NOT sad! I'm FINE!!

Truthfully, I am a little bit disappointed. I was tempted to feel sorry for myself. "Just another awesome thing I don't get to have." But getting to keep my lack of responsiblity IS a good thing. It's the best thing! So really I have nothing to be bothered about. Times like this make me think of a story we read in middle school, I think. It was about this husband and wife. The husband bought a lottery ticket and the story was about when they heard the broadcast for the winning numbers. During the broadcast they both fantasized about how amazing their life would be if they won, and how much the other would screw it up. By the time the winning numbers were read off they both resented each other, and didn't even win the lotto. I always think about that story when I'm idealizing something I want. Often I can't help it though. Thinking about how much I would LOVE having a puppy does leave me a bit bummed after I spent all afternoon telling the cats they might have a brother. NOW what am I supposed to tell them?!?!?!

Nothing on the horizon for this week. My plan with this blog is to do a Sunday post on a consistent basis and otherwise just post whenever. If something is bouncing around my brain I'll write about it, if not I'll just find some fiddle-faddle to write about on Sundays.